贝碧，爹地的干爹过世了。人生大概就是如此，一出世，就必须面临死亡，谁也逃不过。
贝碧，当棺木进行火葬时，众人哭喊着他，叫他快跑啊！看到火就快跑啊！
贝碧，当时的你是否已跑掉了？妈咪一直很懊悔，应该让你独自火化，好让妈咪还能送你最后一程。妈咪也没有叫你看到火就快跑啊！怎么办？你是否有被烧伤？你是否感到疼痛？
贝碧，妈咪心痛到了极点。还是那句话。。。。。。对不起，我的宝贝。。。。。。
Archive for May, 2009
快跑啊！
Posted in Baby, Daddy on May 30, 2009| Leave a Comment »
今天的想念
Posted in Baby on May 26, 2009| Leave a Comment »
贝碧，今天的想念是你咧着嘴的笑。每回我们散步回来，你就会躺在地板上咧着嘴地笑，望着妈咪，看起来很自足。妈咪知道那是因为你在喘气，但看起来就像是咧着嘴的笑。
贝碧，那是今天的想念。
逃走
Posted in Baby, Girby, Puppie on May 24, 2009| Leave a Comment »
贝碧，妈咪好累，周遭的事务与人压得妈咪透不过气，好几次妈咪已出现崩溃的现象。妈咪好想带着格碧和巴碧逃到很远很远的地方，好好喘口气。
贝碧，你要带我们离开这恼人的地方吗？
今天又下雨了
Posted in Baby on May 20, 2009| Leave a Comment »
贝碧，今天又下雨了，不是老天爷在下雨，是妈咪的灵魂之窗在下雨，雨水把妈咪的脸打得湿湿的。
贝碧，这几天妈咪做了好奇怪的梦。前阵子梦到你，妈咪梦到不知为何把你送到寄宿酒店。妈咪打电话去询问你的状况，小姐说你过得不好，还很凶，不让任何人靠近你。小姐问妈咪为何还不去接你回家，妈咪回答说：“还不能去接你。” 醒来后的妈咪心正抽痛着，却无能为力。
贝碧，妈咪昨晚又梦到你。妈咪在观看电视节目，应该是资讯节目，妈咪好像看到你。你跟许多朋友们被关在一个狭窄的笼子里，你看起来好肮脏。妈咪的心就快停止跳动了！妈咪即刻联系电视台询问你的消息。妈咪知道地点后，马上飞奔去找你，可惜原来不是你。。。。。。妈咪好失望、好失望。。。。。。
贝碧，凌晨四点时分，妈咪梦醒了，脑海里浮现你正坐在某处看着妈咪，画面一转，妈咪又看到你那丰满的八月十五，左右摆动地走着，左边翘一下、右边又翘一下，好可爱！可惜那只是假象。。。。。。
贝碧，怎么了？你现在是否过得不好？怎么妈咪总是梦到你在某处受尽委屈？贝碧，到底怎么了？
贝碧，没有妈咪的呵护，你是否被欺负了？你是否受苦了？
贝碧，妈咪的心碎了！妈咪无能，再也没有办法保护你。对不起，我的宝贝。。。。。。永远的宝贝。。。。。。
You got mail!
Posted in Baby, Girby, Puppie on May 18, 2009| Leave a Comment »
Baby…… The dog tags Mummy ordered had just arrived. Mummy ordered one for you too. Ya Baby…… Mummy knows…… Mummy knows too well you will never have the chance to wear it anyway, but Mummy couldn’t help it but ordered one for you as well. Mummy is too used of getting stuffs for my maltese family in a set. Old habits die hard ya.
Baby…… Just by looking and touching your tag filled Mummy’s eyes with tears again. Even seven months+ down the road, Mummy still miss you so so much…… way too much……
Baby…… You like your new tag? Mummy is going to attach the new tag to your leash.
Baby…… Mummy misses leashing you and walking you around in the park. Wish we could walk together forever, with you…… my precious Baby Boy, my chili padi Girby Girl and our sweetie Puppie Pie…… together forever……
Day resolves around Girby Girl. That’s me!
Posted in Baby, Daddy, Enson, Girby, It's a special day...... be it happy or sad, Puppie on May 17, 2009| 2 Comments »
Deary…… It’s my 8th year old Birthday. Mummy bought a Mango Mousse Cake for me yesterday. We had a mini birthday celebration yesterday night.
My Mango Mousse Cake. If only the whole cake is mine. Hiak Hiak
Mummy:” Girl ah…… you wait long long hor hor hor! Hiak Hiak.”
What’s that? Smell great.
Drooling
Mummy said must pose mei mei for her before eating
Strike a pose…… but I am afraid of those bright bright flame thingy from those sticks. It’s feel hot…… so scary!
Mummy:” Girl ah…… Those sticks are candles!”
Mummy made us pose together again. Deary…… where are you? You have a blue polka dot shirt too just like our red polka dot dresses. Remember Mummy sew this set for us long long time ago? There is another set with different design in the wardrobe, but Mummy said this set look nicer on us.
Wet wet kisses for Mummy!
Finally get to eat the cake! Mummy said I can’t eat too much as I just recovered from my usual diarrhoea again. She gave a bigger share to Puppie. Aww…… I am the birthday girl you know, so angry!
Anymore for me?
Mummy:” Sorry Girl…… no more, later you laosai again then you know!”
Chey…… but it’s still Finger Lickin’ Good! Oh no…… think I got it wrong…… should be Tongue Lickin’ Good! Hope I get to eat more tomorrow. Hiak Hiak
Deary…… Enson Didi is sick, he got fever, flu and cough. His fever has yet to subside, Daddy and Mummy are worried sick. Although I don’t really fancy this little monster, I still hope he recover soon. You have to watch him from above. Of course not forgetting us, Mummy secretly made a wish on behalf of me. She want us to live a long long long life for her, think she can’t afford to take another blow after you left. So Deary…… watch us from above, don’t let Mummy sad sad k.
With Love,
Girby Girl
这样的一种感觉
Posted in Baby on May 12, 2009| Leave a Comment »
贝碧，妈咪想把你埋在妈咪心理的最深处，可是你总是趁妈咪不注意的时候涌上妈咪的心头。这时的妈咪眼眶泛泪，偶尔眼泪止住了，偶尔控制不住的眼泪会把妈咪的脸弄得湿湿的。
贝碧，妈咪很不喜欢这样的一种感觉，这样一种悲伤与无奈的感觉。这种感觉是否会伴随着妈咪直到妈咪离开人世为止？
贝碧，妈咪真的很讨厌这样的一种感觉。这样的妈咪无法快乐起来。。。。。。
Seven Months without you……
Posted in Baby, It's a special day...... be it happy or sad on May 8, 2009| Leave a Comment »
Baby…… Seven months without you by my side, days seem to get better each day as they go by although the thought of you still hurts so badly.
Baby…… Thinking of you is so part of Mummy now.
Baby…… Have we come to an end now? Will we see each other again? Where are you now? Have you reincarnate to a real baby, enjoying your milk milk? Have God found you and hold you in his arm now?
Baby…… So many questions with no answer. The only hope Mummy has is when Mummy leaves this world, Mummy might get an answer or…… Mummy will never know……
Baby…… What else can Mummy say……
Baby…… Enson Didi has started school yesterday. Mummy had enrolled him in a three hours playgroup.
Baby…… Time passes so quickly. Enson Didi is already 2 years old. It’s only seems like yesterday Mummy was pregnant with Enson Didi, it was not a graceful pregnancy. Mummy was feeling so sick throughout the whole pregnancy. Mummy couldn’t cook for you all, you guys had to eat kibbles. Mummy couldn’t walk you all, yet you guys had no complain. Mummy was restless and always sleeping like a pig, and you guys accompanied Mummy quietly. How I love you all!
Baby…… Here are some pictures Mummy took for Enson Didi during these two days when Mummy get to sit in.
Day 1
English Lesson
Snack Time…… Yummy Watermelon
Chinese Lesson…… Baby…… Can you find Enson? Saw that Monkey on the left rolling on the floor? He couldn’t sit still while the teacher is giving lesson!
Lunch Time before heading home…… Yummy Fried Noodle
Day 2
All prepare to go to school
Outdoor Activities
Snack Time is Honeydew
English Lesson
Baby…… Tomorrow is the third day of school. Hopefully Enson Didi behave himself when Mummy is not there.
Baby…… Mummy got a new toy last weekend! It’s a new camera! Mummy named it BabyBluez. You guess it right? It’s blue in colour, a very sweety blue colour just like you.
Baby…… Mummy is having fun with this new toy, but you are not here to be my model. Mummy never get enough of you. Mummy wants to take pictures of you, take pictures on every part of your body…… your paws, your eyes, your dew claw, your chipped molar tooth, your fleshy butt…… Wish you are still here to be my model Baby……
Baby…… Here are some photos taken from the new camera. It’s cool! It’s way much better than our old camera. Mummy is so in love with my BabyBluez now. Mummy is still playing around with BabyBluez, have yet to finish reading the manual.
Enson enjoying his splashing bath
Girby’s paw pad
Puppie with her Little Missy Toy
Peek A Boo Puppie
Baby…… Daddy got a new toy too. We had changed our car although Mummy can’t bear to let the old car go. Whenever Mummy sat at the passenger seat, Mummy will be constantly be reminded of you. We are in that passenger seat during your last few days when Mummy rushed you to and fro the vet.
Baby…… You used to adore car ride, yet during your last few car rides, it’s no longer an enjoyable experience for you. The passenger seat didn’t manage to fetch you back home. Maybe it’s time to let it go……
Say goodbye
Baby…… Remember when we just have you, we don’t have a 4-wheels, but we do have a 2-wheels? Yeah Baby…… remember the motorbike? You would always sit on Mummy’s lap while Daddy ride us around. You were so cool! You can sit so steadily on Mummy’s lap, you enjoyed the wind blowing against you while the motorbike is on the move. Now come to think of it, it was rather dangerous ya.
Baby…… We already got the new car. Without fail, you guys are always the 1st few passengers, but this time round, you are missing in action. We went to East Coast Park yesterday in our new car.
Baby…… You are missing out all the fun……
My Forever Maltese Family 
