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幸福

贝碧,你幸福吗?在这七年又零五个月多的日子里,你幸福吗?在你离开的那一天,爹地和妈咪承诺要给格碧幸福,给巴碧幸福,给恩晟幸福。

贝碧,你的幸福是否太短暂?

贝碧,妈咪好恨自己,好恨自己亲手将你推向死亡。

贝碧,妈咪没有不要你。你生病了,妈咪只是带你去看医生。妈咪错在把你带去给一个混医就诊。如果当初妈咪选择的是另一条路,结局是否会改写?

贝碧,妈咪已不知痛哭了几回,哭着喊你的名字,哭着请求你的原谅。

贝碧,妈咪真的没有不要你。如果你能再等妈咪一下子,在你走向彩虹天桥前,你能够再一次看到妈咪,你就会知道妈咪由始至终不曾抛弃过你。

贝碧,拥有你们是妈咪这辈子的幸福,现在妈咪的幸福缺了口,妈咪还能继续拥有幸福吗?

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Baby…… We are back home……

Baby…… When Mummy went to pick up your urn, Mummy cried again. With my trembling voice, I called out to you, Baby…… we are going home.

Baby…… Did you follow Mummy? Please don’t lose you way. Mummy will lead you back home. Daddy is waiting for us in the car with Enson. On the way home, I touched your urn and called out to you, Baby…… go home…… Baby…… go home……

Baby…… You are just beside Mummy enjoying the scenery right? You had always adore car ride. Ever since Enson is born, we seldom go for car ride. I am sorry…… Baby, if only you can give Mummy another chance.

When we are outside our house, I called out to you again, Baby…… we reached home. Did you see Girby and Puppie?

Baby…… Daddy said want to buy a nice box to put your urn. We will go search for one soon. Mummy will decorate your house, it will be your own warm cozy corner.

Baby…… you are just beside Daddy and Mummy now right? We will never be separated. I love you…… Baby……

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Wait for Mummy

Baby…… your ashes is back to ARC. Wait for Mummy k. Mummy will come and pick you up after work. Finally we can go home……

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Lost & Found

Baby…… Mummy dream of you. You are finally in my dream. 

Baby…… Mummy lost you in my dream. I went everywhere to search for you, calling out to you:” Baby…… mum mum lo…… Baby…… mum mum lo……” I went to every households, squated down and peek through their door gaps, just like how you peek through our door gap while waiting for Daddy and Mummy to come home.

Baby…… I saw you through the door gap! You are so happy Mummy come to you finally. I saw you standing up, walking round in circles with your tail wagging and wagging. Mummy quickly used my hand to go through the door gap and I touched you! The house where you are is so quiet and dark, there is no light. Mummy quickly went to press the door bell,  Mummy wait and wait and wait……

Baby…… Mummy woke up while waiting……

Baby…… Are you alone now? Are you in a pitch dark room alone now? Are you cold now? Are you in fear now? Come to Mummy again. This time I will bring you back home……

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I feel you……

Baby…… I think Mummy feels you.

Baby…… Mummy woke up in the middle of the night again. I think it’s about 4.30am in the morning. After a puff, Mummy went back to bed. I thought I heard you jumping down from the bed to the floor. After a while, I heard our main door closing.

Baby…… Did you come back to see us for the last time?

Baby…… Girby and Puppie refused to eat in the morning again. Mummy is so worried. I don’t know what is going on. Without you around to compete with them, they seems to lose interest in food. They did take their dinner after much coaxing. Mummy got to hand feed them again. *sign*

贝碧,没有你在身边,天空怎么看都是灰色的。妈咪的世界好像没有了颜色,你能再一次让妈咪看到颜色吗?

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Hey Baby, Mummy had prepared beef steak for you. This will be the last time Mummy prepare 3 portions of dinner. From tomorrow onwards, Mummy needs to prepare 2 portions only.

Baby…… did you eat? The beef steak is still there, didn’t move an inch. Don’t know why Girby and Puppie refuse to eat. Mummy is disappointed, I told them if Baby is here, he will finish everything in less than one minute. Maybe they want to let you have their share for the last time?

Baby…… Look at you, you are the only one who eats whatever Mummy cook. Only you know how to appreciate Mummy’s cooking.

After you finish yours, it’s still not enough. You will go around ‘aiming’ Girby and Puppie leftover.

Finally…… Finger Licking Good!

Baby…… Mummy misses you. Mummy know you are gone forever. You will be in my heart forever. Till we meet again, we shall cross over the rainbow bridge together.

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Hi Baby Boy, Mummy still can’t feel you. I bet you have yet to come back and visit us right?

Before Mummy sleep, I left your favourite treats on your bowl.

Mummy lie down on the bed, waiting and waiting…… At one point of time, I thought I hear your pawsteps, I thought I hear you breathing. I woke up and look around the bedroom, I didn’t see you. 

When you are around, the sound of your pawsteps are so distinguish. Due to your giantic size, I can hear your ti tap pawsteps when your nails press against the floor while you are walking. It will goes ti-tap…… ti-tap…… ti-tap…… At times, I will just said:” Baby……don’t anyhow shh shh ah, Mummy beat beat ah.” Of course even if you mark, Mummy didn’t beat you. You are so fortunate to have Mummy right? Ever since you were gone, I no longer hear the ti-tap…… ti-tap…… ti-tap……

Baby Boy…… Do you know Girby has become the family victim now? You know how Puppie would go growling at you and guarding her food when you guys are having dinner. Now you no longer around, she growled at Girby instead. For goodness sake! Girby is not even interested in her dinner!

Baby Boy…… Puppie had took over your role. Yesterday night, Puppie was barking at our bedroom door where Enson is sleeping inside. Mummy went over, then heard Enson woke up from his sleep. Mummy feel so touched. You know Puppie is so scare of Enson and Girby Girl doesn’t really fancy Enson. I thought after you are gone, no one will alert us when Enson wake up from his sleep. Puppie did the job for you now.

Baby Boy…… I have to say sorry to you. Yesterday night, Mummy was looking at your documents. I realised I remember your barkday wrongly! I am sorry…… Baby Boy. You are born in 24th January 2001. All along, Mummy thought is 21st January 2001. Sorry Baby Boy…… you know Mummy is simply an idiot when come to numbers. And Baby Boy…… you are named Tiger at Australia before you fly over to Singapore. Baby Boy…… Mummy is a tigeress too.

Baby Boy…… Mummy will cook beef steak for you later. Can you just drop by a tiny little while? Mummy will be waiting…… waiting…… waiting……

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